This fourth week of working from home was ugly:
My thoughts were ridiculously scattered.
Sadness over our current situation was more frequent.
Stress levels increased for unidentifiable reasons.
Major FOMO was happenin’ here!
Let’s be honest, as Assistants we are accustomed to being on the front lines of conversations, plans, and decisions. We extract the necessary details to execute our Oversight’s mission with excellence and grace. We certainly don’t do it alone – we are part of an amazing team of experts in their respective fields, each one offering their gifts and talents for the benefit of others and advancement of the calling. It is exciting. It is holy. It is fulfilling!
Suddenly, though, I found myself in a field…all by myself. It was lonely, confusing, and scary. And that’s when the enemy started in with all the lies. It was the perfect storm of ugly.
You can’t even think straight. I’ll bet you’re getting early dementia.
Things will never be the same. Just think of all the things you’ll miss.
Why can’t you get it together?! Surely, you’re letting things fall through the cracks.
It looks like everyone has moved on without you. You aren’t needed anymore.
Be alert and of sober mind.
Your enemy the devil prowls around
like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
1 Peter 5:8
Oooh, that enemy! He had been watching me and pounced, ready to devour me. He knows the stress that all of us are facing right now (even if we think we’re doing pretty well) and he whispered his lies into the situation. So last night, I found myself unable to sleep and praying to the Lord with tears running down my face. Yep, I told you it was ugly.
But despite the ugly, the Lord climbed in to my mess and met me. He met me with comfort, a listening ear, and truth. His truth. He invited me to put all those things that I had been holding on to in His big, capable hands. He invited me to trust Him – again – with my concerns and enjoy His gift of peaceful sleep. He reminded me that He has placed me where I am for His purposes. He reminded me that I’m not alone. Ever. And He asked if He could be invited into my struggle.
So I did. Gratefully.
This morning was fresh and new. It felt like the flood gates were opened and answers came flowing in. Thoughts were clear. Direction was given. My heart was lighter. And, once again, I could see that I was actually never alone in that field. Sure, the game plan has changed a bit but the mission has remained the same. And He will give me grace to adjust, gifts to utilize in this new season, and joy in the process. I just need to keep my eyes on Him and remember that He takes the ugly and makes it beautiful. His message to His daughters has never changed.
You are adored.
You Are Adored 